Iceberg

I stand in awe of what my Heavenly Father has been doing these last few weeks. There is too much to list. I don't want my first blog to be so long that no one will want to read future posts so I will focus on one thing He did to start.

I was listening to the radio and a couple by name of Justin and Trisha Davis were sharing some of their story and a book they had written called Beyond Ordinary. Some of what they shared resonated with my heart and I knew I wanted to read the book asap. Whenever I start a good book I am afraid to put it down because if I do I know the day to day busyness may prevent me from picking it up again for a very long time. So between loads of laundry and sinkfuls of dishes and picking up after my 3 blessings I devoured this book while my kids played and/ or watched cartoons.

One of the many things that stuck with me was the authors comparison of our lives to an iceberg. The comparison was that like an iceberg there is so much of our lives that most people do not see. Most of who we truly are is hidden below the water line. So the part of the iceberg or our lives that is visible is what we want people to see. The illusion is that there is so much more beneath the surface that we can choose to keep hidden. We do lower the water mark for those closest to us knowing that we can always raise again if we feel too vulnerable. So in a way this blog is me lowering the water mark just a bit, which makes me a little fearful. Putting my thoughts and what is on my heart out there for anyone to read and interpret as they will is a risk.

The reason I have chosen to do this is because as confirmed by a message I heard this week sharing the Gospel starts with sharing the story of what God has done in your life. It isn't having all of the answers to every  question the Bible evokes or knowing all the correct Theology and the original translation from Hebrew or Greek. It is about sharing your heart with others and knowing that part of God's plan for your story was to impact the lives of those you share it with. So that is my motivation behind this blog is that my story or the things that God lays on my heart my resonate with someone like Justin and Trisha story did with me and help them to realize how much God loves them and has in store for those who love Him in return.

 A thought that I had yesterday was that we keep God at arms length from areas of our life that we want to keep below the water line and hidden. The truth is He sees and knows it all so the only person we are lying to is ourselves. God is light and letting Him in close to those areas illuminates what we need to let Him prune and we know that pruning is painful. I know I have been lulled into a false sense that I am growing in my relationship with Him as a whole. I have to except the fact that I can't pick and choose which areas I let Him in. I can't say God you can have my ministry and my time at church but not my relationships or my free time. He wants all of me.

You're gonna have all of me, you're gonna have all of me,

'Cause you're worth every falling tear, you're worth facing any fear

You're gonna know all my love, even if it's not enough

Enough to mend our broken hearts, but giving you all of me is where I'll start.

 

Heaven brought you to this moment, it's too wonderful to speak

You're worth all of me, you're worth all of me

So let me recklessly love you, even if I bleed

You're worth all of me, you're worth all of me
Matt Hammitt-All of Me Lyrics